Most of us at the beginning of our recovery are feeling wobbly, unstable and unworthy to be in God's presence; not to mention undeserving of His love, mercy and forgiveness.
How do we get past these feelings & press in to healing?
Summer 2004 I began working on sobriety but had no real strength within myself. I had clear choices in front of me -- I could go back down the familiar path of darkness that had caused untold destruction to my family, and would now lead to certain death. Instead I chose to go forward into the life offering, healing light of Jesus Christ.
When I walked down the church isle on December 26, 2004 it was like an out of body experience. I don't remember what the preacher said that day, I just knew this was the only answer to my problems. I had such a sense of unworthiness that I couldn't stop crying. It wasn't an easy step to take, but it brought such peace and security.
When I talk with some in the beginning stages of their recovery, I get frustrated at the lack of commitment I see.
If we are to make it for any length of time in our recovery journey we must have a firm commitment, not only to ourselves, but to God and to what He wants for our lives.
We can't be on the fence at this crucial time.
We must get to a place of clear decision and dive in with all we have.
This isn't a foreign concept, after all isn't that what we've been doing, diving in head first into God only knows what?
I don't know about you, but for me it's either all the way or nothing, no matter what I'm doing, I don't do anything halfway! That can be good and a bad thing, if you know what I mean...
But seriously, how determined are we?
What are we willing to give up to be successful in our sobriety?
Early on, I had to make some tough choices about the influences that were sure to effect my walk with God and my sobriety. It was uncomfortable at first but over time I didn't miss the friends, the television programs, the secular music and the magazines.
Sobriety soon became easier and I began to see an added benefit, I could think clearer and retain the things I was studying. I was actually learning, growing and even changing into a new person...the person God wanted me to be.
Perseverance and determination always pay off.
It may be a while before we see any results from our hard work, but eventually we will reap a reward if we just don't give up!
Change doesn't happen over night, after all we didn't get in this condition of addiction over night either!
Sobriety is a life long process of little deaths -- surrendering each day to new patterns for our life.
The best news is we don't have to do it on our own anymore! Praise God! Jesus is there to carry our burden for us if we will just give it to Him!