As with most addicts, I've always lived my life from one extreme to another. Changing from a liberal lifestyle to ultra conservative and to anything goes and now finally back to a healthy life walking with Jesus as my Lord and Savior. My challenge now is not so much about balance in lifestyle as it is in managing my time and energy.
Since my 2 sons, daughter-in-law and precious grand baby arrived three weeks ago to live with us, my energy level has dropped day by day. I was getting grouchy and almost unable to function at all. I finally realized I wasn't taking care of myself by putting boundaries on my own time and space. If I kept it up I would be no good for myself of anyone else.
I've always been a people pleaser, doing and doing for others to make them like me or appreciate me. It's an old habit that's easy to fall back into and I've been guilty of doing it again. Maybe not so much for the same reasons, but still doing and doing for everybody around the house until I'm exhausted. I've been too tired to do my studies, too tired to read and too tired to write. Not good.
I've taken these few days to regroup in solitude and I'm starting to find peace and feel rested again. With the changes in our family and house schedule, it may take me a while to get in the new groove, but I'm confident God will help me as I press on to the things He has called me to do.