STEP EIGHT:Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.
How am I responsible?
Searching the Internet for images that convey the word "commitment" brought multiple pics of marriage proposals. Strangely enough I had much difficulty finding images which displayed the concept of commitment...
So I went to the dictionary and found the words: Pledge, Promise and Obligation. All of these words are hard to put into a visual image. They must be lived out.
As addicts living in addiction we knew about commitment. We were committed to finding our next fix. We would go to great lengths to get it, pushing others aside and often leaving destruction in our wake.
Now the recovery life challenge is to take that same determined commitment and turn it around for the purpose of our health and personal relationships.
If we break down the dictionary definition words from above: pledge, promise and obligation, we see words that imply a personal decision, thought processes, words spoken, documents signed, physical actions taken.
The idea of commitment isn't to be taken lightly. Though as addicts it's sometimes difficult to grasp and maintain the seriousness of it within ourselves.
The key question asks: How am I responsible?
Am I responsible to keep boundaries in place so my triggers don't snap?
Am I responsible to be honest with myself, friends and partners when I am weak and struggling?
Am I response-able?
My recovery-abled response: Pause and then do the next right thing!
A Gentle Path through the Twelve Principles: Living the Values Behind the Steps by Patrick Carnes **